MY VISION OF HAPPINESS MY VISION OF HAPPINESS  If you look at baby pictures of me you'll see I had a very happy childhood filled with light. My very adoring family provided a circle of love. I was allowed to go outside and play everyday and connect with nature and explore things in my neighborhood that was my only universe. I day day dreamed and enjoyed the sunlight and sharing my heart and soul with all I met without fear. None judged me or tried to restrain me. I was free to be who I truly was. Nothing in the rest of the world touched me or molded my character or distorted my way of thinking until I got older and decided to explore the world and travel and see things for myself outside my serene world. You can venture to some remote parts of the world and see native people happy and smiling and living in peace and harmony. Happiness is success. When you are natural and free there is blissful high. I grew up in an innocent environment that only consisted of love and beauty and I developed a pure heart. I saw the difference between man made happiness and real geuine loving happiness centered around the creator and my parents love. I am very blessed by my parents. I owe them a world of love with my whole soul for all eternity because they made many sacrifices for me.  Real love and it's eternal greatness is all I will ever live for. the world brought much hearbreak. I only became depressed and drew inward when I tried to figure the world out and live by the worlds standards. I was nurtured by a strong  self assured intelligent protective mom in a neighborhood filled with close family members. I could see all three of my grandmothers homes from one spot. I was walking distance from the river on a culvasack that was over two hundred years old. My street was made of cobblestone. I used to wave at the train conductor every week on the bridge and catch butterflies and make flower necklaces in the field in front of my house and dream of farway places. I built club houses and played by the river. It was as close to heaven as anyone can ever get in this life. Success is being with the ones you love in Gods beautiful kingdom. I will never view business success as anything monumental. It doesn't touch the heart or feed the soul. My work has appeared in numerous bestsellng books and films but that doesn't feed my soul. My talent has been respected and appreciated by some but none I care to remember or want to exist in my universe. My dreams have come true in roundabout ways through diffferent sources that turned out to be my enemies rather than my friends. They stole my virute and gift rather than asked to use it and offer compensation. They used me and exploited my Godly talent in a way that left scars and bitterness. It should have given me happiness and made me feel proud but it didn't. I should feel great dignity and honor in my achievments but I don't. Instead they left my soul emptry. I learned evil existed in the world. I will never try to please anyone but myself and the people around me that I love. The phony people can have their plastic version of the world. I have my heart and my version of the world that consists of Gods great beauty through his heavenly creations. All that glitters is not gold. If you have to prove something to others through theft and lies and acting aggressive you haven't got anything of substance to share naturally from the inside. If you have to lie to yourself to look in the mirror you've lost your soul. Success is living your dream and finding happiness in your own way and feeling proud of who you are and what you have achieved the right way. It takes faith and strength to keep your innocence in a man made superficial world. It takes beauty to see the inner beauty man tries to tarnish and hide. It takes a special calling within through god and enough wisdom through your spiritual ancestors to choose the right path and never lose sight of your sacredness, light, strength and eternal truth that is Christ the lord and redeemer. When I die I believe god will give me a place far more beautiful than this place and my heart and vision will take me there through my spiritual compass that the angels have helped me keep fine tuned and accurate. The crooks and the buiness world can't offer me success. Only God can The world can destroy people and keep them from spiritual maturity. To know who you are and what love is about is real sucess. You must journey to the core of yourself, take down barriers to reach the inner universe with God your creator. Once you reach a higher part of yourself you are free spiritually to find infinite enternal love through the light. Always cherish the light appreciate inner beauty of the soul and you will always be successful. There your happiness lies. Spiritual happiness doesn't depend on anyone or the world around you. Happiness is just being. Happiness is being innocent and free, happy go lucky and flying though your dreams. There are no boundaries for the spirit  LEE BRETZ MCDOWELL June (C)2014